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I Remember (cont'd)


and lost without a friend.
I remembered feeling betrayed,
and very, very sad.
I hadn't understood before,
but then I'd realized
that sometimes people go away,
and don't ever come back.
I tried to form a reason of why you'd left
so soon,
but nothing came to mind.
I thought you didn't love me,
but that could not be it.
Then one day I just gave up.
I stopped making excuses,
and accepted the fact that you were
gone.

I don't know what to feel right now.
When you died, I lost myself
and everything that I had loved.
How can I go on without you...
It's been so long
and so very hard...
Why aren't you there to comfort me
Now that I need you so?
Why aren't you there to hold me tight
and say that it's all right?
Why did you have to go so soon?
You didn't have to die...
I wish you'd still sit in your chair,
I wsh you'd wear your paisley robe,
and smoke your wooden pipe.
I wish you'd lived,
and stayed with me.
I wish things were the way they used to
be.

--Reema Kar



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